so i have a photoshoot is in like 11hours (it’s 3am atm) and omg i’m super nervous for some reason. well the reason is obviously because it’s going to be semi-nude (i don’t think i’m ready to go full frontal omfg). idk i post shit on here from time to time but it’s going to be a professional photographer and i have no idea why he wants to shoot me because his main subjects are usually super masc, butch guys and i’m literally the skinniest kid and i’m just super nervous okay.
finally got around to watching the rupaul clip show. as much as we rag on how bad this season was and yeah i still agree that the production of the show is going down a bad route but i got really emotional seeing the queens again.
like we got exposure to some sickening queens like jiggly, lashauwn, latrice etc and i live for it
but omfg when rupaul said “i made this show to elevate drag, but we know you love the shade” or something along those lines i was not having it.
tonight i had a traumatising experience. so i was eating speck (sp?) which is like ham or something idk and i was eating it in my room watching tv with my mum and the lights were off and i held it in my hand to eat it right. then i felt the skin and it was sort of rough and moved my finger the other way and it felt REALLY rough and like spiky so i was like what….so i put it up to get the light of the tv to shine on it and omfg like the hair follicles or whatever and little short, stiff hairs were still on it.
idk why but i cant get the image out of my head like it was just on of those cringeworthy things but my brother said it was normal cause its literally the skin of the pig and omfg i’m actually going to throw up thinking about it right now.